Saturday, August 2, 2014

Follow You, Follow Me

It was going to be a great night. Evan and I were heading to the Flyers game. We would be using tickets that he had given to me at Christmas. I do love me some hockey. As I arrived at his house, late of course, he was already in a pissy mood. "What's wrong," not sure why I asked because I already knew the answer. "You're late. Where were you?" This was the normal for me. I was late, he gets pissed, assumes I was doing the worst of the worst. He had a right to be worried considering my track record of being caught in my stupid lies but this time I was legit late. The car ride was silent. We didn't talk, didn't hold hands...sucked. The game was action packed and I wasn't going to let our "argument" ruin it. The car ride home was worse. As we got in the car he started texting someone. I immediately jumped to conclusions. He texted a few more times and I didn't ask because in my head I had already convinced myself it was bad. Silence the whole ride home. It was becoming our "normal". We finally arrived back at his place and I headed right to the bedroom so I could sleep off my anxiety. As I opened the double doors to the bedroom it was dark except for tons of lit candles all over the room. It took me a second to even notice the roses on the dresser. In the background my favorite slow song was playing...on repeat. Come to find out he was texting his son on the ride home so he could set everything up. All I could do was stand in the corner and cry. "Happy Anniversary baby," he said with a half smile. I didn't even remember. I wanted to crawl in a hole. Why do I have to be so fucked up in the head.

Stay with me
My love, I hope you'll always be
Right here by my side if ever I need you
Oh, my love

In your arms
I feel so safe and so secure
And everyday is such a perfect day to spend
Alone with you

I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year

With the dark
Oh, I see so very clearly now
All my fears are drifting by me
So slowly now, fading away

I can say
The night is long but you are here
Close at hand, oh, I'm better for the smile you give
And while I live

I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year there will be

I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year

I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?
Just one single tear in each passing year

I will follow you, will you follow me?
All the days and nights that we know will be
I will stay with you, will you stay with me?

~Genesis

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